Once again, it has been raised to my attention the alarming increase of bullying incidents in schools. More than 1,700 cases of child abuse and bullying was documented by the Department of Education for SY 2013-2014*. While not particularly new, people usually have their attention and action against hazing activities.
Before you read on, take a clean sheet of paper. Crumple it, stomp on it, mess it up, but don’t rip it. Try to unfold it, smooth it out after and tell it you’re sorry. Look how scarred and dirty it is now. Nothing you do will make it look brand new. the scars are left behind. Imagine this is how a child feels when another person bullies them, no matter how you try to fix things or tell them you’re sorry..
In the real world, each of us have our set of friends. They come from different backgrounds, might have a different perspective in life, but ultimately we all have something in common that bonds us
In my case those who are close to me are treated like siblings, knows me inside out, and my partners in crime. We are there for each other in times of happiness and of need. We can’t deny the fact that there are friends who are closer to us compared to others – who we call ‘best friends‘.
In the military (US Army in particular), it’s the same thing, but they’re called ‘battle buddy‘.
In conjunction to my earlier post about a past relationship, you might have noticed that aside from a change in theme, I also changed my blog’s title.
One day I went out of the house to buy street food beside our village’s main gate. On my way home, I was getting tired of listening to my favorite songs that I shuffled my playlist and try other tracks that were there but I never really listen to.
Then I came across David Archuleta‘s song from his 2010 album, “The Other Side of Down”. Listening intently to the lyrics, I found a connection to my current dilemma at the time. Add the crazy weather and my sudden preference for everything simple and viola~
Up until now, my old email accounts that I don’t use are still active. I check them once in a while and get rid of spam messages. Sometimes I look over old messages and read them. Yup, those messages our friends pass us like they do in SMS. Some are funny, some are inspiring.
Here’s one that I’ve found worth sharing. It now makes sense to me 🙂
It is when you stop going along with the crowd and start realizing that there are many things about yourself that you didn’t know and may not like. You start feeling insecure and wonder where you will be in a year or two, but then get scared because you barely know where you are now. You start realizing that people are selfish and that, maybe, those friends that you thought you were so close to aren’t exactly the greatest people you have ever met, and the people you have lost touch with are some of the most important ones. What you don’t recognize is that they are realizing that too, and aren’t really cold, catty, mean or insincere, but that they are as confused as you. You look at your job… and it is not even close to what you thought you would be doing, or maybe you are looking for a job and realizing that you are going to have to start at the bottom and that scares you. Your opinions have gotten stronger. You see what others are doing and find yourself judging more than usual because suddenly you realize that you have certain boundaries in your life and are constantly adding things to your list of what is acceptable and what isn’t. One minute, you are insecure and then the next, secure. You laugh and cry with the greatest force of your life. You feel alone and scared and confused. Suddenly, change is the enemy and you try and cling on to the past with dear life, but soon realize that the past is drifting further and further away, and there is nothing to do but stay where you are or move forward. You get your heart broken and wonder how someone you loved could do such damage to you. Or you lie in bed and wonder why you can’t meet anyone decent enough that you want to get to know them better. Perhaps you love someone who doesn’t love you back, or worse yet, loves someone else. Or maybe you love someone but love someone else too and cannot figure out why you are doing this because you know that you aren’t a bad person. One night stands and random hook ups start to look cheap. Getting wasted and acting like an idiot starts to look pathetic. You go through the same emotions and questions over and over, and talk with your friends about the same topics because you cannot seem to make a decision. You worry about loans, money, the future and making a life for yourself… and while winning the race would be great, right now you’d just like to be a contender! What you may not realize is that everyone reading this relates to it. We are in our best of times and our worst of times, trying as hard as we can to figure this whole thing out.
Once in a while I have this knack of searching Tumblr for the tag “OJT” or “Internship” for no reason at all. Reading the entries though, especially those from CS/IT fields or those that are kinda ranting that they still have xx hours left to finish while whining makes me look back on my On-the-Job training.
I just finished watching Grey’s Anatomy latest episode: Season 8 Episode 13 “If/Then”. The episode revolves around an alternate reality wherein Meredith Grey is living the life of ‘Meredith Webber’ in Seattle Grace Hospital.
I admit, I’m in the state of confusion in a certain part of my life. That is, aside from being very busy and battling with colds that I’m not able to update my blog. I use all my time to work, watch NCIS episodes when I’m resting and sleep.
I turn to music too, when I want to focus on what I am doing or when I’m thinking about things. Or when I want to find answers. In another search of a beautiful song to add in my list, I stumbled upon Jason Mraz: “I Won’t Give Up“.
I used to live a life where I was always playing safe. I think being brought up in a sheltered environment made me that way. I don’t play outside with other kids, unless I am in school. I had a service from grade school up to 2nd year high school. I don’t go out alone to the mall and the places that I know is just my hometown and the mall nearest our house.
All of that changed in high school. I learned to play computer games. I get to go to my classmate’s house for projects/practice. I get to commute everyday on my own.
And a lot of firsts in college. I don’t say I already tried everything that there is. I still have a lot ahead of me. Things that people tell me I have to try to do because it’s fun, it’s inspiring, it’s interesting, etc. To live each day as if it’s the last, to live life to the fullest. And this is where this quote comes in.
I do things that I love, I decide on my own, I do what makes me happy.. As long as it’s not against my principles in life.